Beaner is sick

Beaner is Brooklyn....it started from "brookie bean" or "brookie beaner" which is a name that my mom gave her and somehow was shortened to "beaner" buy me.
Anyway.......she woke up this morning tugging on her left ear. She made it until about 8:15 and then the fever started and then the crying. Ear infection. Bummer. We have to get it cleared up before we leave for Texas (we fly out next Tuesday) Children's Hospital/Blue Bird Rett Clinic. We have had this appointment scheduled since JUNE. I hope she gets to feeling better. She stayed home with Grammy today and will stay with her tomorrow. Grammy love is magical, I have a feeling she will be feeling better REAL SOON!
Tonight she was asleep at 7:00pm (so I know my little night owl is not feeling too hot.) She was out after about 60 seconds of me rocking her. Tonight though was one of those nights I just wanted to hold her and smell her and listen to her heart beating and her peaceful breathing. I wanted to just soak up her stillness.
I know I post a ton of her sleeping pictures but it is something most everyone reading this (except my Rett family) takes for granted. These moments of pure stillness is amazing ~ a true blessing for her. I think I could of held her and watched her sleep all night. I did however give up that selfish thought and lay her in bed. I pray she gets to feeling better.
In the morning the stillness will give in to the Rett; the clapping, the breath holding, the hyperventilating, the teeth grinding, the stress of not being able to get her little body to do what she wants it to do. Oh yeah.......and the earache.